happy, sad, mad

I really don't know how I'm supposed to feel at the moment. Or whether I feel all of the above at once. How do you deal with someone who isn't as mature as you and doesn't want a deep mature relationship, even though, they promised it all to you? How do you figure out if someone has truly grown up? Is it because they clean up after themselves? Is it because they are organized and have nice things? I think it's because, I would feel that if anything happened to me, I could trust them and they would somehow want and be able to take care of me. I'd also like to feel that everyday. The little things matter so much. That is the definition a true relationship, for either party, I would think. Both parties coming together in good times and in bad to take care of eachother in whatever hardship either is enduring and the trust that either party could handle it. I'm a tough person, but I still need that security, that there's someone out there looking out for me, as much as I'm looking out for them. Without that, there's nothing there...