Interesting

So it's been a while again. I'm wondering if I should just shut the blog down. I just don't have time for it anymore. And I'm using my paper journal alot more. There's so many happy things to put in there and that's where I want them to be. It used to be that I only used to write in the paper one when I was feeling really down. It became this big book of depressing things. I want to change that. Then by that time, I don't want to rewrite that here. Plus I have so many more outlets now for negative like that now. Most of them more constructive than just writing down thoughts.

Here's a brief update of things now, I'll mull over the future of this blog another time. Ryan's in San Jose at the moment for work, he's been there for a little over a week. I kinda really really miss him. That's hard for me to admit, that's just not my nature. But I do and I'm accepting it. I guess I just get so used of being my own rock, and just depending on me, it's hard to admit that I've given a little of that away. But on the other hand, it's a good sign that I'm branching out again and trusting again. I can't wait till he gets home.

All my sports have been rained out lately. Tonight was the 3rd event in a row!! But I went for a bike ride and did all that pesky stuff I've been putting off, like laundry and vacuuming. Work is getting better and I'm really starting to enjoy it now. I've cut out the crazy OT almost completely. It was just an insane workload attributed to me learning the ropes. But I feel more comfortable now, and I'm really really starting to like it. I'm applying the classes I loved in school, project management, decision support systems, design methodologies, I love it. I'm so busy when I'm at work, but the days go by so fast and I feel like I'm accomplishing something at the end of the day. I like that.

Bunnyrat and I went out to the lake this weekend. Bunnyrat likes her leash and I had her outside most of Sunday. Now that we're home, she's eating the pretty daisies Ryan got me for my birthday. She's so sneaky about it too! I was finishing off a book tonight and I hadn't seen her for a while. As I was about to get up and look for her, I saw a head pop over the end table behind me, she took a bottom petal of a daisy quickly and then popped back down to eat it, without making a sound. What a brat, the daisies are starting to look pretty sparse......