Learning to be single

I don't make the greatest single and looking girl at all.

I've had boyfriends for so much of my dating life, I don't really think about myself in public and automatically turn away male attention.

Yesterday at Walmart, I was buying Vitamins. The cute pharmacist came over and asked if I need help. I said no thanks, I've found what I'm looking for and he walked away, past another couple people in the aisle that definitely looked like they needed help. I didn't think of it till later, wait, I should of started a conversation with him!

The next stop was Canadian Tire. I heard they were having a sale on area rugs, I was all excited because I knew there were a couple I knew I liked. So I pick out my rug and am trying to get it off the shelf. About 3 guys non-chalantly stop and ask if I need help, not employees, shoppers. I instinctively said no, I had it covered. Then again in line, the guy behind me asked if I needed help getting it into my car. It was actually really easy to carry and manouver, so again, I instictively said no thank you.

After I got out of Canadian Tire and was driving home. I realized, what I had done. Then I started thinking to myself, how many times this happens to me when I'm out in public. It happens quite often, I get lots of male attention and I turn it away. Because it wasn't right to accept that attention before, that wasn't fair to whatever relationship I was in at the time.

But now it's fair game. I need to learn how to play this game and become more aware of my surroundings and take my auto response off. There's lots out there, but I need to be open to it.......