Out with the Old, in with the New

One of these reflective posts again, if you don't like them, I suggest you skip this one.

When I look back on 2007, I don't even know how to begin to describe it. I had some of my greatest moments along with some of my worst. It was all over the place.

The beginning of the year brought on a new relationship. One I wasn't entirely ready for or ready to accept fully, but it happened, and I'm glad. I adventured on some major physical feats, including joining gymnastics and doing a 40km hike.

The summer was tough but also fun. I had to straighten out some things that were really bothering me on a personal level. Dave also lived with me for the summer. That was fun and interesting. It proved to me that I'm not un-livable, as I previously thought. Brett and Alnaar got married. My Dad retired. I tried to mend some bridges the best I knew how from 2006. It was really interesting. I had my first real nervous breakdown. I don't recommend it.

The fall I got to be a part of Barbara and Brant's wedding. Darrell and I found a niche that worked, and we got to know and trust eachother more. And I started to do alot more of the things that made me me again. Overall it was just a time to make myself happy and be comfortable again. And I really am.

To summarize the year, I really regained my self confidence back. It was really bruised in the breakup in 2006.

Hopefully this next year will be a little more even kiltered. I solved alot of the things that were making me off kilter in 2007, psychologically, personally and even chemically. 2008 is already bringing lots of big questions that need answers, and I'm going to have to face some decisions I've been putting off for a little while now. Examples being, deciding what I'm doing on the job front and relationship fronts. 2008 will be the time to really really think about these, while not allowing outside pressure to influence my decisions. I will be doing alot more travelling in 2008 as well. They key is not to stress and just enjoy. Life is all about change, and if you can't adapt, you're going to have a 2007 every year. I wish I could list all the revelations I had this year, but I can't, there's way too many.

I guess I was right in stating the fact that life didn't really begin until after school was over, but that was only because I wouldn't let it, it wasn't really a reality, just something that happened because I believed that. The biggest lesson I learned of all this year, was to live for today, not for the future. You miss alot of things waiting for things that may or may not happen. Having dreams and goals doesn't need to mean putting everything in life on hold until you get there.

Also, I learned that when I worry about things, I need to tell people, otherwise they drive me crazy. There are so many times in the last 2 years where I wish I would have vocalized them more. I'm better about them now. The key is having people that you're comfortable confiding in, and who won't freak out. Alot of times I was more fearful of the reaction that someone got from my worries than the actual thing I was worrying about. And when that happens it's almost instant panic attack. Most of the time the worry isn't even significant. But if there's a reaction to it, then my brain goes crazy. The key is to not even get to that point. Also I learned that high drama people, elicit high drama reactions in me.

Wow, this got way more reflective than I thought. I invite everyone to reflect on the past year a little, and then let it go to make way for 2008.

Happy New Years!