Internal Eternal Struggle

Since highschool I've always had an internal struggle going on. The struggle between my girlside and boyside traits. Highschool I was still a part of girlworld and I could function but a big part in the competition and active side was missing. Near the end of high school I started hanging out with the boys more where those needs were met, but the girl gossip, shopping and interactions were all lost. In university, most of my really close girlfriends had moved away, and I took computer science, so throughout I routinely had time where I didn't have any super close girlfriends and was immersed in guy culture, gross comedies, geekery, sports, gym etc. Not that I minded. When I got out of university I had almost forgotton about all the girly things that I do like to do and some of the girly traits that I have. I am quite girly, and have quite girly interests and reactions, and I know that, but I still like alot of the guy culture and have some logic behind not being too over emotional, it's a good mix. I do like to cook and bake and decorate, but I also like to do home projects, go to the gym, watch slapstick comedies and putz around on the computer programming and what not. It's been a while since I've had to balance both, and it was so hard when I first ended school to bring the 2 personalities together. I had finally been able to do both. Finally, I'm starting to feel like they're in balance with each other. Yes I like going for drinks with the guys, but I also like to come home and figure out which throw pillow matches what piece of furniture and where should I put it and I don't have to repress either side from either group. I have a good mix of friends that allow me to do this. I think the internal struggle is fading....