The Strong Man

I don't know what's with me lately. I've had so much energy and I'm just restless. Not bad restless, please keep my mind occupied restless, but I have energy fun restless. I seriously can't believe how much has gotten done in the last couple days, and not, oh gee I'd better do that, but in a how can I make this fun kinda way. I think somewhere in the last 2 years, I lost that part of my personality and it's found it's way back. Also my place is always filled with music, I've missed that too. Whether it's off my computer or I just pick a random galaxy channel, it just puts me at ease. I guess what I'm saying is that I feel more like myself than I have in a long time.

Also I'm starting to open myself up to a 'personal' life again. I think I may have just tried too soon, because it's actually coming naturally. There was a good little while where I just wasn't interested in guys no matter who they were or what they looked like. But now I see myself picking out traits that I find irrisistable, personality and looks wise. I seem to be attracted to the strong assertive type lately. Someone who has the guts to stand up to me and reason with me logically. That and some muscles never hurt anyone ;)

Although, sometimes the pessimist in me wonders, does resentment just come naturally in relationship? I mean sure everything's sunshiney in the beginning in all of them. Fun is had, you can't wait to be with one another. Then a couple years down the road and all of a sudden, both are comfortable so they can do what ever they want and resentment is inevitable. The line I struggle with the most is "I never expected you to actually leave". Well if you take your partner for granted everyday and you know they are very unhappy but aren't doing anything about it, what would you expect? Marriage or no marriage, if it's crappy, you're going to leave. From the girls nights I've been to, this is quite a common line said by guys. It just boggles my mind! Because obviously, if it's said, you know you're acting in a jerky way to your partner!

On the other hand, I was just reading Heather's blog, you tell people how to treat you. Do us girls end up bending so much to keep them happy that we lose a part of ourselves? In many relationships I've been in, especially the longer ones, I try many different attempts to change things, all while communicating that something needs to change for us to be happy. Are all these changes indications that I won't leave? Am I training people to resent me because of my pleasing and understanding nature? Or is it simply just my choice in men? What do you guys think?

A book meme, you're it!

Tagged by James...

1. Grab the book closest to you.
2. Open it to page 123, go down to the fifth sentence.
3. Post the next three sentences on your website.
4. Name the book and its author.
5. Tag three people to do the same.

"You can even go to the extreme of devising onmouseover and onmouseout event handlers that pass parameters just like the linkTo() function to display browser-specific URLs.

One last suggestion, which may be useful in many situations, is to use the location.replace() method, rather than assigning a URL to the location.href property. The replace() method instructs the browser to rewrite the browser's navigation history so that the new page take the place of the current page."

from JavaScript&DHTML Cookbook by Danny Goodman


I tag Heather, Matt, and Erika. Hopefully those people read frequently enough that they know they are being tagged.

I cheated too, I went to my book cabinet, the book I had nearest, 123 was the chapter on C pointers and there was no way I was writing down that.

Rudolph was everywhere this weekend

Sweet! My buddy James got an interview at my work! I'm excited. Candice and James together again, just like the old days. There were walks, walks around the mall, Uno, nerf guns, potato heads, dryer balls, HMV and the list goes on. It'll be so awesome to have him here. I say he's a shoe in, but he doesn't want to jynx it.

Christmas mania was lots of fun on the weekend. Off to Regina I went on Friday for the iQMetrix Christmas Formal. It was at the renowned Assiniboia Club. It was pretty neat and the food was really good. They weren't really a party hard bunch, and as usual, programmers were hard to find. We're an elusive bunch, us programmers.

Saturday I raided my parent's basement for more decorations for my tree. It looks pretty good now! Also took off to Sasktoon for Christmas Formal #2, my work party. This was a pretty good party. The supper was really good, and the peanut butter cheesecake for dessert was delicious. I saw one of the bosses make a good fool out of himself, dancing with a Christmas tree, hiding in the Christmas trees, playing a tree like a guitar, making out with a tree, doing the chicken dance to AC/DC, knocking over wall decorations, etc. That was hilarious! We had our very own Team Red consisting of Shannon and Paul, Shannon made a nice sash for her dress that matched Paul's dress shirt perfectly. It was very chic! The door prizes were some of the most geeky prizes I've ever seen. Shannon won a socket set and some tools, Jenn won a flashlight and tire pressure gauge and Kevin won some sort of hardware electronics board and a surge protector. The dj for the dance wasn't the greatest, but Shannon and I still managed to tear up the dance floor. We also managed to accost Kevin as he was leaving and danced him into staying longer on the dance floor. We had a trade off of partners for a while where I danced with Paul, he likes his twirls, where Paul tried to make my date Phil jealous, by giving him the wink and the gun while dancing. I'm not too sure it worked, but twirling is fun. I then witnessed an attack on an ATM, sticking spoons on your face competitions and many a rambling conversation. Also had an encounter with Mrs.Claus. All in all fun was had.

Sunday was a very tough recovery day.

Yesterday I had my very first girls night in a Burger King. I enjoy BK, but no one ever wants to go there with me. So I'm happy that I have friends with kids that like the play area there. If there was a ball pit, I would of enjoyed the play area there as well. I went with Shannon and her friend Michelle. We had many a philosophical discussion, mostly about boys. Oh drama!

Tonight I'm going to stay home, do laundry, tidy up my place a bit. Find a place for all the decoration boxes. Tomorrow is girls night with Barbara and Toni. (What's with all the girls nights? Am I turning into a girl?) I get Max HD tomorrow too, that's exciting! Hooray for the Discovery Channel and TLC, how I miss you so! All the home renovations I can do now! And useless trivial pursuit knowledge! And the Dog Whisperer on National Geographic channel. Wow, I'm a geek.

Fill in the sentence..

Shamelessly stolen from Nadine...

1) I am a(n)... exciting person!
2) My ex-boy/girlfriend was... not ready to be responsible for me, and us, and accept me
3) I'm just a(n)... goof
4) Maybe I should... eat, I believe people do that at lunch.
5) I love... summer and anything associated with summer
6) ____________ is/are cute: Kittens
7) Looking forward... to tonight and tomorrow. Woot! Part-ay!
8) I don't understand... the better beginning of this year.
9) I lost my... oh my, I'm not putting my first thought.
10) My boy/girlfriend is a(n): Well my ideal boyfriend is super thoughtful.
11) In darkness, I... finally sleep well.
12) Why do I...attract the wrong men?
13) Is there such a thing as... a pirate ninja?
14) Does the...... hot chocolate have coffee in it?
15) People say I'm...cute, although I've been getting hot alot lately. I'll have to accept the hotness.
16) Love is... forever
17) You make me wanna...... yeesh, you don't want my first reaction to that either
18) Somewhere, someone is...... shovelling snow, just for me!
19) Is it true that...... love is blind?
20) I will always...... be a control freak.
21) Forever is...a nice thought
22) I never want to... eat floor cake.

Crazy christmas lady!

It's Christmas!!!!!!!!!

I'm excited. Going to a formal christmas party with Phil in Regina tonight, for his work. I have my gown ready at home, the toes are painted, the hair is ready. Now I just need to get through this morning of work. Crap! I'm way to excited to work. I'm pretty much bouncing off the walls, and I haven't eaten anything yet today. So, no sugar or caffeine to blame for this one. It's been a long time since I've been this excited about something. Then tomorrow I'm back in Saskatoon, for my work Christmas party. It's also a formal party. I'm also just as excited for it. Dinner, Dancing, drinks, all free! Plus I get to dress up again! Sweet! I should just be a contessa or something, then I could wear ball gowns all the time! I'd so come to work in a ball gown and drink in hand. Maybe even a pineapple drink! oooh! I like where this is going!

In other news, my Christmas tree is up! Check out how cool it is. Ha, ha, tackiest tree ever. But that's the fun of Christmas! If you don't have a big tacky tree, the spirit has been lost on you. My Christmas shopping is also all done. All that's left is the cards and they will be out Monday morning. Lets cross our fingers that they get to everyone before Christmas.

From December2006

I had a good visit with Barbara and Toni last night. We listened to Christmas music, had some rum and egg nogs, talked about the usual, boys, toys, boy-toys, health and Christmas.

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good day!

happy, sad, mad

I really don't know how I'm supposed to feel at the moment. Or whether I feel all of the above at once. How do you deal with someone who isn't as mature as you and doesn't want a deep mature relationship, even though, they promised it all to you? How do you figure out if someone has truly grown up? Is it because they clean up after themselves? Is it because they are organized and have nice things? I think it's because, I would feel that if anything happened to me, I could trust them and they would somehow want and be able to take care of me. I'd also like to feel that everyday. The little things matter so much. That is the definition a true relationship, for either party, I would think. Both parties coming together in good times and in bad to take care of eachother in whatever hardship either is enduring and the trust that either party could handle it. I'm a tough person, but I still need that security, that there's someone out there looking out for me, as much as I'm looking out for them. Without that, there's nothing there...

This isn't Bam! It's Kaboom!

Operation Christmas is in full swing around casa Candice these days. I get a tree and decorations tomorrow. I've been writing Christmas cards like a mad woman and the Christmas music channel has been on non stop. I also bought some christmas cookie cutters. I'm a regular day Martha Stewart, without the jail time and insider trading.

I cleaned my tub today, it needed it. I bought some stuff called Kaboom. I realized when I got home that I was supposed to buy Bam. Who names these things? And can't there be 2 different names than Kaboom and Bam? There must be some copyright infringement in there somewhere, that's just confusing. But the Kaboom worked really well, I didn't even have to put any muscle in it, which is good, because I don't have any. I still don't understand when I'm supposed to say kaboom or bam though....

I got asked out at work today. I totally didn't see it coming. I still don't know how I feel about dating people at work. I don't think it's a very good idea for me, I don't really want to make a name for myself or anything. I'm not against other people dating people at work. But it's been 6 years since I've been asked out. I was so flattered. That took so much courage. So I told him the truth and everything is fine. I think I'll deal with the issues at hand before I tackle the dating at work one.

Girls night thursday night. Movies and Vietnamese food, yum! I'm looking forward. I don't think I've seen Toni in 3 weeks. Poor thing with a cracked tailbone and cold.

snowboarding gymnists

Free time? Where'd you go? You've been all used up.

Shannon dragged me to gymnastics last wednesday. Actually it didn't go too bad. Okay you can all stop laughing now. Yes I'm horribly uncoordinated but with some stretching and practice and professional instruction, I was actually able to do almost a full cartwheel! Yes, after years of attempts, it's almost all there. And now with no falling! Actually with some more stretching and weights I should be able to do alot of that stuff. Just getting rid of the fear, I mean falling on your head on a padded mat really doesn't hurt.

Thursday I had a dance off at my place. A dance dance revolution party. Also I tried out Guitar Hero. I really enjoy that game. It will have to be added to my list of fun things to get. Some of the guys from work came and I realised there was a closet ddr'er in the group. It was fun. I couldn't move my calves on Friday or Saturday from all the dancing.

Friday I went to Earls with Barbara and Marnie. We had some good girl talking. And lots of martinis. Some good laughs. There's a part of Earls that I didn't even know what there. I've lived here 6 months and I don't know the Earls? What's wrong with me?

Saturday I did some Christmas shopping. Knocked a couple presents off my list. Found some new shoes for all the Christmas Formals next weekend. They are gold and sparkely. They are also quite low which increases my dancing options ;)

Sunday was awesome!!!!! I can't believe how much I've missed snowboarding. I really enjoyed it. We went to Table Mountain. I haven't been in about 3 years now. I thought I'd be hopeless on board. I can only carve one way right now. I used to be able to do both. But another day on the hill and that should come back. My muscles gave out halfway through the afternoon though. I was telling them what to do and they were all like "no we've had enough, have fun steering away from that tree". That kinda sucked, I'm sure if they were stronger I could have been back to my skill level 3 years ago. But I still enjoyed being out on that hill. I think a mountain ski trip is in order this winter.

I get a christmas tree this week! Yay! I was really looking forward to starting my own traditions for my own family this year. But since my own family this year consists of just me, I will just have fun with it. I'm not going to put a damper on my own christmas spirit because of something like that. I'm rebelling against the idea, and it's exciting. So everything didn't turn out as planned. But I can still make myself and my own home look festive for the season. I can also bake myself christmas cookies and fudge and eat them all!!!!!!! That's exciting in itself! Or I can invite some friends to share. I can start my own traditions for me and when the time is right, they can be shared with someone else, in turn becoming family traditions. It's kinda exciting.

I found the problem with your spreadsheet, it's a sudoku

Work has been insanely busy lately. Putting in alot of hours. Lots of work on lots of different projects. It's actually alot of fun. I know alot more now so I can actually answer questions on the spot, which also means, more work.

The other half of work fun is that the guys here are so social. They're having a beard growing competition. Shannon and I are judges. We made up 5 categories to score them out of 5 points each, Rugged Handsomeness, Softness, Length, Grooming and Density. So the guys grew their beards for a month and today we went to Smiley's Buffet for the judging. So the guys were strutting their beards around, trying to get brownie points from the judges. We had softness in there, so we actually had to touch the beards. It was too funny. The losers have to shave their beards into handlebar mustaches for a week and the winner gets pride.

It's nice to have another crazy girl at work too. Shannon and I drew a flowchart of the type of guy we want to meet with all the criteria and decisions. We're such geeks. Then we hired Paul as our relationship manager, so if a guy fails the flowchart in some manner or the relationship isn't going where it should be going, he would come in and break it off for us, or for the best for us. Like having a programmatic middleman, who does the dirty work.

Today my winter boots were called "boots of haste". I started laughing. If you don't know why, you are not a nerd. That item was originated from Dungeons and Dragons and has been copied in many RPGs since. So I told Shannon and she knew what I was talking about, then we had the most nerdy conversation about if my boots of haste could beat Shannon's boots of speed. And if they did infact beat out her boots, whether it would level up my boots or not. We had 5 guys starting at us in awe at the lunch table and we totally geeked Matt right out of the conversation, it was too geeky for him. This was from the guy who spent 20 minutes talking about Final Fantasy 10 and 11. I like being a nerd.