The Beatles would be proud

I've realised that all you have to do is spaz out on the internet and you get help with things. Sarah is helping me tons with the planning for the parties now and people in my office are organising my going away shindig next week. I'm so happy for all of this. This takes tonnes of stress off me. I can now focus on where I'm going to live and packing and enjoying the last little bit of time I have in Regina. I've also been able to talk about some of my worries about moving to people. I thank everyone who listened and had advice. It really helped. I feel less nervous now and more like myself. I need to learn how to ask for help or ask people to listen instead of bottling everything up. There's only so much of that I can take out on myself physically before it comes to a big explosion. It doesn't happen often but I think that would probably be a good step in the right direction. I'm so used of depending on myself for everything that I need to realize that it is okay to depend on other people and ask for some help. I always have the motto that if I don't do something it's not going to get done at all. That's not necessarily true. If I ask, it might. Don't expect miracles from me though. Habits like these are hard to change. I never want to be entirely dependent on someone, I need to know that I can always take care of myself, but a little help once in a while can't hurt.